no mood to blog yesterday cause so many things happened. =/ i really hate it.

i was happy at first, finally meeting darling after so long due to his toothache. i was REALLY worried. (he said i wasnt) i brought my science homework along, study abit and sylvia help me copy the science homework i was suppose to hand up. although just one but thanks ehs. (:

darling came to me with qiming and we headed for lunch at pastamania. darling treat me but i really want to pay myself cause he gonna broke liao. haiyah.

after that went back 7thstorey then wanted to go popular look for sims 2 so we went and when i just start, he told me he will be abit pekchek. then i thought he was refering to me shopping so i gave him attitude. then he starts shouting and gave me his FCUKING attitude which i REALLY hate. his face really qian da. even if i not angry also will because of his FCUKING ATTITUDE face and get angry. (darling, im not saying you now. its just what i felt. i love your face okay. serious.)

so he went away with qiming and i start to walk around alone. then he called. wanting me to go look for him for a talk. then i got more and more pekchek and walked away. he followed but i pushed his hand away when he wanted to hold me. i said no to him and he walked away again. not coming back anymore. then sms came.

'we be fren better ok?' this is exactly what he told me in the sms. i was so shocked asked him why and he said i didnt understand him, say he having toothache then i never even care about him. he wants to separate. i said okay.

i cant go home. home makes me worse cause i have nothing to do. so i went around shopping spending over $5o. bought lotsa stuff.

-hello kitty bracelet $16.9o
-crown necklace $24.9o
-mini toons $4.95
-more then words $6.8o
total = $53.55

shit. didnt feel happy at all but they are really beautiful. especially the hk bracelet.

then he call me up again. he wanna bring me home.

asked stupid questions like 'are you happy?' 'finally one person liao hor? without me better?'

I AM NOT! i really need you to go on. i admit that im weak, i need you by my side. i need you to piggyback me again. i want you and everything from you once again. haiyah i just want you. very simple. just didnt say all these to you.

after saying so much to me, i cried. i really wondered if our love was this weak. i couldnt believe all these at all. i kept quiet all the while.

until you came infront and hugged me.

i cried even harder hoping this means you came back, not leaving me behind anymore. i was right. we sort out some feelings and you want me back again.

i hope i wouldnt get so stuck up anymore cause im usually like that. but you dont like it i know. and darling, stop giving me that face leh. really irritating. (: i will change for you too.

i slacked when i got home. cant really study much due to my emotions. i was really afraid he would leave again. thinking about it makes me shed tears again. and mummy bought the ginvera green tea marvel gel for me. wohoo! (: i always wanted that.

i know darling love me. right? don let me cry anymore.

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oh ya about today, had history and literature exams. both are okay. just some i dont know how it works, as usual. just wrote lotsa rubbish. pray hard that i'll pass.

darling finally came to pick me up after school cause he has his last paper at bout 23o. they happy lorh. last paper liao, no need come school anymore. zhixiang and the rest even wanted to burn their uniforms. =x

siao!

may be going for movies later. maybe la hor. see darling how.

so i'll update later.

smooches*

;i am afraid